aha. What a wonderful day... why don't they just call this "the day of roses" or something equivilent... I wore a yellow and pink rose around, and Matt gave me one He's so sweet! Since I last posted I "broke up" with Houston.... so now, I guess he actually IS my "fuck-buddy"... It's not that bad *giggles* Take Last night for instance... we had sex in the shower (wow, it was great) and then once (this "morning" @ like 1:am) we did it again in bed... can I say gReAt? I will probably end up seeing him again sometime... But I really kinda like living at my dads and having my own space (and he does his).

Work has been wonderful.... I work with Jessica (a chick I really dig).... "Jeeze Rocan" is our own little inside joke... you won't ever get it... dont' try. Dustin is my buddy too, and my neighbor here at my dad's house. He's SUCH a flirt... and it's fun to flirt (knowing I can't have him, and not really wanting him, just having fun with it... if you can get that.)

Shaun felt it necessary to take Em to the Emergency room the other night when she had a fever (maybe it was a ploy of his to get me away of my fun night out, even so, it cost him $75.) He neglected to tell me that he didn't give her any Tylenol before we took her there... so he payed that for a dose of Motrin... good thing it worked. They gave him some papers about fevers, and what to do. He needed it. On our way home we got in a fight... he grabbed my face... twice. I didn't think he'd ever touch me again since I left him... guess he hasn't changed a bit.

I have been slightly neglecting my pal Scott.. sorry bro

Tonight, for my "Valentine's Day"... work was great.... I had an awesome day, and nothing got me down (yes, I say this only knowing the day has about 40 more min. left). I worked with Jessica, Ivan, and Frankie... three of my favorite people there... and Dustin came to see me *grin*... Chelsi and I got Arris' Pizza (a local Greek Pizzaria here in Jeff... also one in Springfield, MO, check it out) Plus the fact that I have Em tonight, makes it a wonderful evening.

Shaun got suspended from work, and so he's been off for a few days, and he's trying to pull this guilt trip on me so that I will watch Em - when he doesnt' feel like keeping her... because he "needs to rest" or some shit like that. Wonder if he'd care if I had her all the time??? Maybe someday it will come down to that... but not just yet. I will never feel the need to keep Em from her daddy... Unless he starts to ever get violent w/ her... and then he'll be lucky to see her at all. All that seemed to ever do was want me to be with any other guy that showed me kindness...

I'm watching "The Secret Window" right now on HBO... it's almost over... and i will be heading to bed soon.... sounds great. I need the sleep... I get to sleep in until 8.30 tomorrow... lucky me

Keep being yourself, feel the love, and just smile.

Love Always~Heather