Many times a day things roll through my mind that I could, and would love to put here... but, with the mind i've been given, i can't seem to remember the things that come to mind.

Last night I went to Holli and Kenny's with Janel, Chelsi (which I invited b/c she didn't go w/ my mom) and Em. Shaun just happened to be there... we did pretty good... except for the continuing fact that, for some reason, I make him hostile and angry... all the time. We didn't do too bad (thanks to me) until the last moments I was there. I asked Shaun if he wanted to keep Em that night b/c I kinda wanted to be alone (one of the nights I was off). Kenny's dad's girlfriend said "You need to take responsibility sometimes"... Okay... so I kinda went over the edge. I, of me and Shaun, AM the responsible one... I'm sick of constantly being so responsible. Sure, I go out and have someone watch her... that doesnt' make me bad and unresponsible. I flipped out. Shaun got the blunt of it too. The main problem with Shaun is that he overexplains himself to me. When I get the point of what he's throwing at me, I've got it... and you can't just keep on saying it and beating it in b/c it's already there... get it? *inhales..... exhales*

About procrastination... I am a hoooorrible procrastinator. I do not like going places or doing things that can be put off. I am trying to get out of this habit b/c it's not a very good one... I'm trying to get Em a twin bed (from Janels) and I need something besides my car to do it... Also my Shadow... I gotta get up the motivation to go get that thing. When I am motivated enough I don't have the motivation to get Houston up to do it... it drives me crazy ( I suppose I could get someone else to help me, but I just rather it be him.

I finally figured out I will be getting a little money back on my taxes , this will all go to fixing my car and getting insurance. Hopefully I can get a job at Hoods w/ Stephanie so that I can get more $$.... I better go for just this sec... pretty sure I might update tonight (after Midnight, b/c I work 7-12 tonight)... gotta get a few more hours in....

Love ya~heather