I'm awake now that September is over (little joke for all you Green Day fans). My nails are grown out--the longest i've ever had them... AND they have been like this for more than a week?!?! -yeah, i'm a nail biter. I HAVE to go to the gym today. I got a membership (don't know if that was in my last blog or not) and i haven't been in like 4 days. *shame on me* Sooo I've gotta get off my lazy ass and go! Emmie loves it b/c they have a little kids play place.

The guy situatioin in my life is about as crazy as it's ever been. There is Ben-a guy I really like but has a girlfriend, that treats him bad... but they have a little girl so he feels stuck. Chris-an awesome guy I can tell anything to. Brian-a guy I met at work (not an employee, only a customer). and.... Joey My online, tell everything in the world to, soon-to-be "warming partner" for winter. *grin* Yeah, if I'm lucky. Anyone who knows me, knows that I rely on men in my life.. just to hold me up. I wrote a little poem, here it is:

"my pieces"
i missed him once today
then i remembered the way he made me feel
when he broke me into all those tiny pieces
all these boys... the new ones in my life
came from all around, each of them
taking pieces of me... holding them up
unbreaking me one piece at a time
giving me that steady feeling
the feeling of safety that had been lost
security within their arms
just a simple moment...
when their piece of me is grasped deep within them
my secrets... my love... my soul... my heart
a kiss, a smile, a smirk, a warm embrace
holding me high... stealing my pain
come find your way to me.... pick up your piece
let me feel your strength

9/9/05

Yep... that's it, what did you think of it? I took Emilee to Hartsburg the other day... got some really good pictures. Sadly.... I could get them put on CD but my drive doesn't work... sooo I'd have to find some other computer to use. Which I will do... just give me some time *grin* I think I'm going to go hang out with Chris today... I am procrastinating, I should be in the shower... and we all know how I am... sheesh. I am going to try to write in this at LEAST twice a week. Even if I only come in to blab something out for a second. like: "Today I ate 10 mini-pancakes for breakfast". And that's the truth.

Much love to you all~heather