i retract the subject of my entry already... the truth is, if my boyfriend opens his heart to kindness and being a loving man, there is always a REASON! Yep, you've read about my great time at Six Flags... and the reason I got to go in the first place is because my awesome boyfriend GAVE me, my best friend, sister, and her friend the tickets... He retaliates (forgive my spelling) tonight with "Matt is having a kegger next weekend, I might go, either Sat. or Friday night"... I cannot go, because he needs time for himself... at a party. I'm about 85... no.... 65% sure I'm not allowed to go b/c he's ashamed of me. Sooo i'm not the best looking apple on the tree, and I have no clue why he picked me... but he did, and he should be happy to be w/ me. Hell, I'm happy to be with him, and I try to show it! I haven't been to a bar with him since he turned 21, it's been a year now. I'm pretty sure he hides me... Oh well... I suppose I'll have to be the gracious one, still... try to be a good example on how to treat someone... *grrr* sick of this life. I WANT A MAN THAT IS PROUD TO HAVE ME AND SHOW HE LOVES ME TO HIS FRIENDS (yes shaun, I'm counting on you reading this-I don't wanna hide things from you--gotta problem with it TALK to me about it-don't ground me.) *sighs*... k, hope you enjoyed my vent... tried to use this as a "what fun thing did I do today" journal--didn't work.

Beyond the drama of late night bullshit... Janel came over, we watched "Tuck Everlasting" one of those movies I don't like because I like loving sweet endings... so sorry if I ruined it for ya...I turned in my Halloween costume and Pumpkin Festival film today--i'm PSYCHED to get it back!!! Of course, I'll post some pics.... if u wanna c them... Ohhh yeah, Janel and I are going to see Breaking Benjamin *raise ur hand if you like 'em*... we sorta kidna saw them with Evanescence, 3 days grace, and Seether, but we kinda got there late so we missed most of their songs-bummer eh?

Grrrrr my eyes are dry... lazy me, don't want to get up... HAHAH...

Today I've been on a Lila McCann kick "Down Came A Blackbird"...  listening to it for a long while... takes me way back to my Junior year, cruising the blvd. with Amanda, singing it... good times... I'm sleepy now, I'm gunna go chill w/ my man for a while....

Love ya~talk at u later!!!

~Heather.... *grin*