So here it is:... Houston and I have decided to talk and see if this relationship (any sort at all) is what either of us want. This saddens me to the second highest degree... I really seriously like him... but I have to get it in my head that he never wants more kids and never wants to get married.... ever again. Now... before you go rushing into this whole "Heather's a crazy bitch because she thinks she has to marry this dude and have his kids".... just wait. It's not that I want to marry him... NOW... and it's defanitly not true that I want another baby.. NOW... but someday, I do want to get married... I do want to have more kids... and I'm not completly sure that he's the one I want that with... sooo what am I doing stil talking to him and being his friend... I do NOT have the ability to just let people go. I cannot... for the life of me... just say "okay, so you don't wanna get married or have kids... goodbye" I've spent the last 4 months getting to know him, his background, what he likes, hates, how he sleeps, likes his food, how he drives.... the way he walks, his smell, his smile, and how to talk to him... So suddenly, I'm supposed to just say "Okay, soooo goodbye"... I don't think anyone should waste things like that. I don't know what to do about it, but I can't just never see him again. He makes my heart flutter... plus. He kisses me just right... and maybe I feel safe when he holds me...

To better days and comfortable nights *cheers*~Heather