First off... Happy September!?  I'll throw out the new happenings: Jake and I never recovered (big suprise there) I continue to move on without him. I got a new job at Wal*mart in the photo lab (damnit, i rule.) I have a little tiny crush on a boy... or two? A friend of mine is in love with me and I just can't develop those kinda feelings for him... I love Jeremy's band- Letter By Hour - www.myspace.com/letterbyhour - soo go there to hear their music, etc. I have Emmie today (friday) through Monday night-Tuesday night if i get real lucky. Sooo that is awesome. Today I'm sick *tear* but I drank some of my Naked juice and feel way better... (awesome health kinda food drink--wow its great) www.nakedjuice.com the mango kind rules. I'm trying to lose some of my weight... Okay, so I'll throw my weight out there (unladylike I know... what can I say.) I weighed 153 *gasp* in early April... and I'm down to 127 (and falling)... so if I keep up my healthy drinking, eating, and "exercise" I will be exactly where I wanna be at christmas... right? *hi5*.

The boy situation in my life is kind of awkward.... I like these two dudes, but don't know about how it would ever work, or whatever... so if I could find a guy to just hold me, and make me feel safe... I think that's all I ever want from a guy. Keep your money, keep your new car/house... just freakin' hold me! Too complicated I suppose for a little mind to grasp. Or maybe I'm just too simple, I should try to create more of a challenge. *grin*

My family and I are doing better.... p.s. Jake called and told my dad he'd beat his ass if he didn't lay off me--if that's not makin' me feel secure, I dunno what is. What's his friggin' deal. I TOTALLY do NOT want to even like him anymore. I can't help it. Someday I'll just let him go--and I can't wait until then. My sister and I talk and stuff more too....

Wow. I'm drinking some of this "berry blast" naked... it doesn't taste that great. Oh well... I'm gunna finish it, and just stick to my mango I guess   Hmmm I'm going to go for now... Sleepy time, for being sick... I get to get up and spend 3 days with my BABY!? Much Lovin'.... almost all of it!

~Heather